MIXED FEELINGS.

As you can see..my shan(sis) said i've gone missing for 3 days.
was real busy..on fri after work rush to school for lesson wasn't able to have dinner at all, only after lesson then i've got the chance to have supper. and SUPPER is SUPER FATtening and extremly hard to digest for me.. hate that kinda busy, rushing-for-time feelings.

Sat was really a mixed feelings day, totally.
i drag myself to work after few hrs of sleep..
was working as usual..email bee everything was just fine, another working day~
out of a sudden, while i was serving a customer, this email thingy popped up "new email received" i always dont't open it immediately if i've a customer with me(for sure). i don't know why i happen to click that immediately.. and i just went BLANK. i thought i've seen it wrongly. was a totally shocking news, she still so young. I hopes she rest in peace..wanted to go to the wake but i couldn't as dad yet a year yet. it's better not to go :) althought i don't really know about those stuffs but if it's was for everyone good i shall follow :) it's hard to accept it when ur love ones is gone. so treasure those by your side..you will never know. it reminds me of dad.. feelings was heavy..

YET.. i ended work late, nearly 2.
i had Dlesson at 2.30. bee came to fetch me..speed down for lesson.
went bee's :) to rest for a while..and gone fishing later in the midnight till morning.
(sun)
slept for hrs over at bee's and went down for Dlesson just in time. luckily everything went smoothly. :)

went bukit batok for lunch and went ikea. suppose to help bee choose things that suits to deco his room. fine~ in the end i'm the one who is buying..it's always ended with me buying things, shopping, and he accompany. LOLS.

back to bee's, packed his rooms..and saw things that i hope i didn't see it, seiously better not. it was just so unfair. althought i know nothing is fair, but when you see it it just cant help to feel that way in whichever situation. i'm sure everyone has felt unfair before. It makes me think twice... wonder.. and every silly thoughts just came across my mind. i hope i wish it would be discard. which i believe it wont happen. so, dont blame me for showing what you called, attitude. it's hard to put on an act.

alright, made last min decision not to join u guys for anything, said i was tired, i wanna watch this and that, i wanna go home, it was just to prevent me showing what you called, attitude.

that's why im home blogging.. whereby tml is a public holi means no work. :)


you think i would wanna go home, be at home, sleep early? you just didn't realise.. :)